Jaime shares a personal, reflective monologue recorded while driving through the woods, exploring themes of identity, calling, and faith. She discusses her desire to fully live out the unique identity God gave her rather than imitating others, and how she's been praying for guidance on how to do that. She reflects on her work running a rural youth music education program and the tension she feels between doing things the “normal,” expected way versus following inspired, life-giving ideas that might be riskier but more aligned with her purpose.
She talks candidly about internal doubts and fears—especially the voice in her head that discourages new ideas by raising concerns about funding, sustainability, and expectations. She traces some of these fears to messages she internalized growing up, particularly a suspicion of joy and a belief that God's path must always involve hardship and sacrifice. She's now learning to believe that joy can also be from God and that excitement about an idea might actually be His prompting.
Ultimately, she concludes that it’s not all up to her—God is responsible for the outcomes. She expresses a desire to step out in faith, take creative risks, and trust that God will provide fruit from her work. Her hope is to help others, including her team and students, thrive in their own identities and callings as well.
For more musings… check out Jaime’s Book: The Jael Finishing School: Etiquette For Dangerous Women. Available on Amazon and Audible and probably your favorite book source.
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